tak siapa pernah mintak.

hyeee. ;)
hari nie nak share benda yang dah agak lama aku simpan. so this post might be long. but please, im just sharing it. theres no intention to ask for attention, sympathy or what not.

this thing aku teringat balik when i was on the phone with this one particular person. it was on last february. but teringat lagi bila on the phone lagi dengan dia end of april. that person was asking, "macam mana skarang? sakit lagi macam dulu?"
aku terkedu! i was like, wow ingat lagi dia eyhh. sebab, the only person yang keep on reminding me to look after myself is my mom. mom was being so concern about it. especially when it comes to my meals. aku dah perlu kurangkan makan sotong.seafood lah kalo boleyh. && senang cakap, kalo tak amek langsung lagi bagoss gitu.huhu.
tapi since dok jaohh dari rumah, kadang2 aku curi2 jugak makan.hehe.tak tahannnn.ngee.

so the thing is, its actually since aku cuti sem 3. now, aku cuti sem 5 dah ponn. time tu aku baru saja beberapa hari di rumah since cuti sem dah bermula. and 1 day when i woke up, aku rasa sangat pelik, rasa rimas, sampai x twu nak describe.

so then aku tanya mak aku, if she ever notice different in me. my mom say no. yeahh time tu baru nak mula rasanya. then sehari selepas tu, the feeling was getting worst till my mom baru sedar betul2 & so do the others.

so mom took me to the clinic. doctor checked.(sorry people, i can't reveal all the parts). so what i can tell you is just, doctor told me that i'm suffering with my nerves. i got shocked mann! serious shit rasa cam nak nanges. aku terbayang macam mana aku nak menghadap kawan2 aku bila cuti dah habes nanti. so then i asked the doctor. doktor cakap, kalo aku ikot makan ubat, rajen buat exercise a.k.a fisio, may be aku boleh cepat recover. aku pasrah && doa banyak2. ubat yang aku dapat, jangan tanya la banyak mana. memang berjenis jenis lahh.


aku punya perasaan time tu tak tergambar. duduk dalam rumah asek nanges saja. aku dah jadi malu nak keluar rumah. aku jumpa orang pon aku akan tunduk. even jiran2 sebelah rumah. mak aku marah aku tak tegur jiran sebab takot nanti jiran2 ingat aku sombong plakk. but i just can't. aku malu untuk bagi orang tengok aku dalam keadaan cam tu. serious cakap, aku ingat mati ja time tuhh.

tapi, i was so lucky!. mak usaha bawak aku pergi bawak berubat. tapi, yang selalu pergi berubat instead of jumpa doktor, mak bawak pergi buat acupuncture. untuk gerakkan/aktifkan the nerves. masa buat tu kan i was like terbaring. so masa tu la baru teringat macam2. so i cant stop myself from crying. that chinese guys kept on telling me to stop crying because acupuncture kan something macam gerakan elektrik, so takot la kalo terkena air mata. kang electric shock, teros kejong kat situ.ahahaha. ;p

berapa kali jugak sepanjang cuti tu asek dok berulang alik jumpa doktor ambil ubat & tunjuk perkembangan. tapi naseb baek stiap kali ubat habes, pergi jumpa doktor, tunjuk ada perkembangan so boleyh kurangkan ubat. ;)

the only frens yang twu pon at that time rasanya NK & cikmiko. i dont want to tell cikmiko at 1st. tapi dia paksa aku. aku ingat lagi aku tanya dia, "hang nak kawan ngan aku lagi ka kalo hang tengok aku macam nie?"huhu.

tapi tu laa, dengan kuasa Allah, aku dah pulih. ;) . tapi aku ingat lagi, when i was in semester 4, i was still under medication. peket ubat terakhir was during prektis utk mandarin nite. time sem 4 la! still ada rasa tak selesa, tapi, perlu dilawan & kuatkan jugak! now pon kadang2 ada la jugak terasa macam semacam. tapi aku kuat!perlu!. ;)

hmm thats why ever since aku amek ubat tu, badan aku dah naek sikit.heh! so now, trying to turunkan berat lahh.huhu. tapi mak marah kalo aku nak kurus2. dia cakap nanti kalo kurus, kulit jadi mengecut so nampak gelap!.hehe. =)

so that was the story yang nak share.ngee.

ermm but to that person, im not sure if we can meet during this sem break.because, im not going to be here during this sem break. we'll sort things out later. but im hoping to see you too as it was so long since our last met.



so okayy ppl,
tc && till we meet again on next entry.
im eida,
signing off.
mwahxss!
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p/s i love you : nak tengok adamaya. bye!