i cant sleep

hello , hi everyone!
okay, the moment i start to create this entry, its now 4.03am in the morning. and yess, i haven't sleep yet cause i couldn't sleep. this is because i set rule to myself, never ever go to bed when you are angry/depressed or anything that related . I've been trying to sleep. but i just couldn't. i just don't know why i feel like something is stuck inside and don't wanna get out. hoiii rasa sesaknya dada. andd i hate this feeling. and i feel like crying. kenapa nie? whats wrong with me?*exhale
i'll be off to shah alam just in few hours. my bus is at 9.30 in the morning and yet, i still didn't sleep and still awake. what happen to me?pfft!
i just don't know where to express my feelings. terus bangun dari tilam, and here i go, my blog, here i express. but still, masih rasa tak cukup. tak twu ke mana lagi patut dicurah. but seriously i feel like crying. i seldomly have this kind of feelings, but sometimes when it happens, i just hate myself. cause me myself have no answer why and whats wrong with me. haihhh kurang perhatian betul la.

untill now i still awake, nampaknya memang tak tido lah kot. if i go to sleep, scared that i might missed the bus. nayhhh, nevermind, i'll be sleeping in the bus lah. 8hours weyhh. no kidding. from arau to shah alam. this is my first time taking bus from arau to shah alam. my housemate told me the journey took about 8hours. i dont know cause this is my first time so i cant tell anything yet.but say hello to back pain i guess.

things that get me pissed off tonight is also bout my phone. i just dont know why it keeps on turning on and off by itself. mannnn, tell me why i cannot be pissed of with such things like that.
dear phone, 
please be nice to me. im not planning to buy any new phone to replace you. i still love you.
sincerely,
yours truly.xoxo

haaaa, tak suka taw phone jadi bengong2 macam tu. serious rasa nak campak je phone tu ke dinding. tak payah pakai phone senang! haihh. semua benda nak rosak ke? jam lah, phone lah. haaa lepas nie ape lagi? oii tak ade duit lah nak beli2 lain. aku sayang korang lagi. so please be nice to me.will you?

ohh and the watch. i'll be hand in the watch back to the owner. ye laaa, dah hujung sem kan. kena lah pulangkan balik. nama pun pinjam. well, terima kasih jam LMFAO, awak dah berjasa dengan saya. thanks a lot.

hoii dah pukul 4stengah haaa. should i sleep or not? :/

so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : nervous nak naik bus dua tingkat kejap lagi.its my first time ever.grrrr.

imma lucky girl

hello, hye everyone!
hope everyone was in a goood condition. im having quite a hectic week since exams is just around the corner. next week will be the last week of learning sessh for this semester and i'll be off,  more or less for 2 weeks for my study weeks, and then final will start reallll soon. i am shivering right here.grrrr!

well, in my previous entry, i did story that i was soooo down pertaining to my watch. and now i'm telling you that imma happy girl. ada orang yang baik hati sudi pinjamkan i jam. i was so awwww!.hahaha.
actually most of my classmate dah perasan sebenarnya jam siapa yang i pakai tu. tapi tak kesah pun. im not hiding anything pun. yang tahu, tahu lah. i tak nak kecoh-kecoh pun. :)

well, sebenarnya takut pakai barang orang nie. tapi dah dia suruh pakai, i ikot sajeee.hehe. barang orang lah nak kena jaga lebih dari barang sendiri. takut hoii kalau ape-ape. i'm still searching for new watch actually. ini barang pinjam kan. sooner or later kena jugak pulangkan balik kepada tuan empunya. =)

besar punya atas tangan i. ;')

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yayyy! sape notice LMFAO ade pakai dalam MV 'sexy and I know it'

lepas nie I boleh wiggle wiggle wiggle.LOL

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so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you :  ade orang yang with darling hearts posted an entry bout me. tell you imma lucky girl. =D go read this entry. CLICK HERE.

i cried silently inside

hi everyone!
again, this is just a quick entry. just wanna express my feelings here.
i feel so upset today. :'(
sebab jam pertama yang aku beli with my own money dah putus dan cermin dia dah crack. sedih hoiii. sumpah nak nangis bila tengok-tengok dia boleh tiba-tiba terlucut dari tangan dan sujud menyembah bumi. :'(
seriously need a new watch now. takpelah, tak de brand pun takpe. nak buat macam mane because i am totally broke now. nanti-nantilah beli yg quality sikit bila ada duit lebih. as for now, i just need watch. rasa tak selesa bila jam tak ada.
bukan jam lain tak ada, tapi i just don't want to use them as my daily watch. yang ada tu tak sesuai nak dijadikan basahan atau nak lenjan tiap-tiap hari. haihh, susah bila ada own financial management crisis nie. sebab bila dah jadi macam nie, setakat boleh cakap je la ape yang nak. nak beli betul-betul mane kau nak datang duit.grrrrr! *blamemyself.

this is the watch yang i've been wearing since my diploma years lagi.

Esprit Purple Houston

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so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : perempuan, kau tak payah la nak tengok aku kerek sangat. i've got nothing to do with him.we're just FRIEND. kalau kau nak sangat, go and tell straight to his face yang kau nak dia. langsung aku x kesah!

the feeling shows

hi everyone!
well, this is just a quick and random updates i guess.
basically, yesterday ada sports day for finance students under their club which is BAFIN. i am too lazy to attend as i don't have transport pun to go. plus, shiela and wanie was not around. plusss, the night before, i was told that i'm going to have meeting in the morning pertaining to the dinner thingy. but the meeting was cancelled.
urghhh, this dinner thing is freaking me out i must say. well, i'll story bout the dinner thingy in other post (if i rajin.LOL)
well, back to the sports day story. ape yang nak cakap kat sini, bila sebut je pasal sports day, it reminds me of  sports day back when i was in diploma years. especially my batch. batch kitorang paling rajin skali untuk turun dan join ape2 aktiviti rasanya.
As for my class, Steven Kereta Mayat(SKEMA) group lelaki, and we all the girls group Hup Seng Biskut Kering. woihhhh rindunyaaaa. :'(
i miss the people badly. bila lagi ntah kita semua dapat kumpul sama sama lagi. not only the people, i miss merbok jugakk. believe it or not, dah nak hampir setahun aku di arau, i still keep on comparing merbok with arau. i'm sorry.

and oh yeahhh, heard that the boys from my class won 2nd place for futsal. well, congratulations you guys! =)

i think thats it for now as this is just a quick updates.

so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : i got a feeling.

what i want

p/s i love you : because its wordless wednesday

been wondering

Hello Again

Bismillah
ohmyyy, its been what? 5 months? yess it is.
and because of that length of time, I'm now a big girl. LOL.
I turn 22 years old last sunday. ermmm 13th November to be exact.
its been 22 years that I've been alive. Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah. I've learn a lot through my 22 years journey. all my experience in my journey teaches me a lot. like seriously. all the ups and downs that make me for who I am right now, I'm thankful and greatful. sesungguhnya, segala yang baik itu datang dari Allah dan segala yang buruk itu datang dari nafsu saya sendiri.
I'm trying to be better person. itu yang aku harap. aku harap untuk jadi kuat hati, tabah hati. biar kering sikit hati nie. jangan asek nak menangis bila benda yang tak perlu ditangiskan. biar aku ada sifat tidak endahkan orang lain bila orang lain pun tak endahkan aku. well, what you give is what you get back lahh kan. fair enough aku rasa. tapi masalahnya, entah kenapa aku asek nakkkkk jugak fikir orang lain. but, aku tak pernah cakap aku baik sangat. tapi, hati kecil nie selalu jugak akan nakkkk jugak terfikir.

well well well, banyak yang aku nak sebenarnya. tapi bottom line is, of course lah I'm hoping for the better one. InsyaAllah.
ohh tapi, I didn't get what in my wishlist. well, tak ada siapa pun tahu apa wishlist aku sebenarnya. takpelah, usaha keras sendiri untuk dapatkan.

this year birthday cake.of course its from my family.who else.

i love my family to the bits. *hugs*

since this is my 1st post after a longgggg MIA, so i gotta find right tune jugak kot. so tak boleh nak update panjang2 sangat.

betul, lama betul kali nie tak update apa2. ye lahh, the last time I logged in for blogger pun, dashboard belum berubah wajah okayy. sekarang dahboard dah lain. hmm go figure out lah, lama tak lama lah kan tak masuk sini. LOL. 

so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : I have instinct

ohh hati

nak jerit kuat-kuat.

:'(

tolong lahh.

hello, hye.
ayayaii.tak tahu dari mana nak mula. dah jadi akward pulak bila nak update. sebab dah tak update sangat lama. rasa untuk nak update tu ada, tapi malas.heee.boleh macam tu?

memang ada jugak dok login blogger.com neyh. tapi bila sebelum click kat new post, tangan lagi cepat dok scroll updates dari blogger laen yang aku follow. so end up, akan jadi blogwalking saja. tak ada entry baru.huhu.

nie macam kali nie pun, niat hati rasa nak update pasal convocation yang lepas. tapi, tangan dah scroll tengok update blogger laen.ngee.so end up, enrty pasal convo terpaksa postpone dulu naaa.heee.tunggu mood datang menyeru laen kali pulak. =)

so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : ohh i just cant wait fr this weekend to come.i miss home badly. :'(

bila aku ada masalah, aku selalu doa supaya aku mati cepat. berdosa tak macam tu?
kbye.

a came back

hello, hye

yes, today is sunday, 20th march. and i am at my home sweet home. hoyeahh. yes-yes-yes this is record yang paling lama aku x update satu apa pun. well, life been so busy. we are now in the third month of 2011. in the 3 months, of course many thing had happened. stress, depressed, happy, sad, semuanya ada dalam 3 bulan nie.

well, i wanna share something. quite basi lahh kalau nak cerita because i have update nothing since january 1st. ni haa, pasal aku hilang rantai. hilang time buat medical check  up.wuwuwuwu.sedih gila. sebab barang tu ja yang nampak dengan duit aku kerja before sambung belaja diploma dulu. aku beli dengan duit first payment yang aku dapat. aku hilang rantai tu, memang aku sedih gilaaaa. menangis aku.
mak ckap, x pa lah mungkin tak ada rezeki. nanti ada duit, beli lain. hmm memmang la boley beli lain. tapi tak akan sama.huhu. memang la rantai yang aku beli tu even bukan tiffany pun. wah chan je pun. tapi aku sayanggg.
so sekarang aku macam sedeyh especialy kalau ternampak orang pkai rantai white gold, pendant bentuk love.huuuu.sedih tawu.

okayy, tuu rindu rantai tuuu. =(

 see.leher dah kosong.dah x ada apa2. =(

so okayy ppl,

tc && till we meet again on next entry.

im eida,

signing off.

mwahxss!.

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p/s i love you : ohh yess, i have chop off my hair.but im missing the old hair now. =(

new year

FAREWELL

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HELLO

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so okayy ppl,
tc && till we meet again on next entry.
im eida,
signing off.
mwahxss!.
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p/s i love you : i hope my journey in the year 2011 will be nice. :)